Has anyone had any acquaintances or relatives with this condition? Or a doctor who used to help treat these symptoms, please advise me on which way to go to see a doctor. Because of the current situation, going to the hospital like before for a checkup, it would take a long time and may be infected with covid
Let me tell you a bit of a biography.
Issue 1. Trust
That is, before any abnormal symptoms occur. In my life, I lost 1 house and 1 condo unit after my mother who didn’t live together took it for a mortgage. It made me a person who doesn’t want to mess with anyone and doesn’t trust anyone. Even though I remind myself every time that I try to open up some, but unconsciously close my heart to many people. I don’t want to work in such a way that people can work anywhere for a short time. My father always looked at me as a child. But after losing the house, I had an argument with my mother who scolded you through a large line until she repented (maybe). When she lost the condo, she was shocked, but the mother agreed to help pay the rent to go. rented Then send me to study high school. Then I asked you for 10000 baht. Let’s try to do business selling online.
The business that I do is just doing the same business as my father but like doing it online. I had my father keep the money because he was the father I trusted the most. But my father is quite ignorant of the online world. You have invested to buy things for me 3000, give only 1000 advertising costs. and shipping costs, depending on the order But he secretly used the rest of the money to invest in his own shop that almost did not survive. Because he didn’t believe in me because I didn’t work for long. But when selling the first time, it took 9 days, I sold 19000, but had to wait for the destination. But I think it’s still okay because I still have some spare money, even after deducting a little more shipping and advertising, I can still support until the money comes out. But when I go to ask him to tell me the money has been used to spin all of them. Until I had to ask my mother who I didn’t want to talk to the most and was accused of taking my money to feed my friends and use them to hang out or play drugs. But I was told that the advertising cost and the actual shipping cost were only 1500 baht. until enough money comes in, the destination money starts to flow and then loop again Father took the money to invest in his own shop until the money was not enough.
until I quarreled with my father for the first time in my life So I asked to collect my money. Then the condition began to flow. Then I asked a friend to help. At first I paid him individually and then paid a separate pack. Because he has a full time job to answer customers for him to do only during 8-11 o’clock. Then come pack in the evening before going to class and send them off. I saw my friend very diligent. He did a good job and his income was so high that he could almost quit his full-time job to work with me.
And me and him have been close for a very long time, I trust him. So I decided to become a partner of 10% because I dreamed of working in music since I was young. Even though my voice wasn’t good, my friend who played music said “my ears are good” even though I felt that it wasn’t. Then I will withdraw for him to take care of the business. But after I made a 10% partner, they didn’t work as before. He said the full-time job was tiring. But I asked a friend of mine who had done it with him and he said that he always threw the job. From early morning to late It turned out that I came to answer during the noon, and I found a message from the morning and left me to reply to new customer messages. Then from helping to pack, it turns out that I do it alone some days. When I’m lazy to study and don’t go But Dan’s stuff had to send me back to being used to send it myself because he said he was tired from his regular job. I do everything alone until I sell almost every other day for 2-3 days, but it’s cheap to rush to sell from my friends until later I sleep 2 hours a day and in the morning I wake up and sell it. until I felt that he would take advantage of me too. So I asked him to reduce his money to 8%, he said so I’ll make it less like a percentage reduction for Kepa. So I agreed. and then “sorry” for the sake of the word friend And then he started to get up after a fight. But soon it was the same But I don’t want to lose my friends But lately, I have seen the revenue from the sale has decreased until I am confused. When I asked to see the account book that my friend had made It’s still a lot here. But I hired another friend to try the account for me. In summary, some cash on delivery that the customer did not receive was put in the account and I had to pay. So I indirectly told him that the income was bad. Let’s do it alone. Give it something good first. and then quarrel And he said, 8% is fine. I can’t really tell He could say that individually. But I was stubborn and chose to do it alone. He said that he sold half a month to get 40 thousand, but gave me 10%. Is this heavy? (actually sold for 8 days because I was doing it alone. He almost always packs and sends and takes notes, but takes frequent breaks because he doesn’t sleep and is in school) cursing me a lot. I’m sorry but he keeps saying sorry sorry sorry sorry it’s worthless keep it Until I don’t want to say it because it’s probably nothing good.
But he chose to post on social media. Until the seniors that I respect come to scold me, but I choose to tell the reason and not post anything or make excuses on my side because I don’t want my friends to look bad, but… . The younger generation from who used to be with no respect I don’t care about the worship of the younger brother because I’m not a Buddhist. But I will pay homage to all seniors. It is from a younger brother who used to pay respect and not pay respect enough that some people tried to pretend not to see or hide. Until the end, it will be good and the juniors come back to respect But some people still hide their faces and some seniors look at me with a silver face. Until I stopped smoking for a long time, came back to smoke because of this stress.
Story 2. Losing
After starting to do it alone Everything was difficult, but once I was able to adjust, I was fine. Sleep less, work more to earn money. My life at that time was all about money. Then there was a dream-hunting program about these music. So I tried applying and going to the audition. But a lot of people go I waited 5 hours but the queue was long.
Plus, the battery runs out, so I choose to go home to deliver the items in time for the cut off cycle. “Have I lost my dream?” I asked myself.
and when the business starts well I made 1 million in 1 year at the age of 22 but I didn’t want to save my own money so my father kept it. Because of money, it almost made me lose a friend. Because the money that I earn is a lot (for a child who starts a business like me), I can still earn it again. But what I overlooked is My father often tried to make me stop waiting for the destination. until ai advertising it finds a continuous value And when the money comes in a lump sum, it doesn’t come in the way when I first made it. It doesn’t have any money in the ai system, it’s slowly falling apart.
And I’m so busy selling that I forget to study new marketing. because I think we are good enough And when the old rental room is so small that I don’t have enough storage, I go to rent a new place. But I’m looking to rent a condo with a double room enough because it’s enough to put things and have a bedroom. But my father wanted a lightweight but expensive tool. But father will find one small room to put I asked if this machine is “loud” or not. My father said “not popular” so I told him to take a double room. It’s better to save than renting a separate room on the bottom and I’m afraid to put the product in another place and the stuff will be lost. So got a double room But make a rental contract before the tool comes. But when it came, the person who said it wasn’t loud was very loud. Plus, I put it in my bedroom because the outside is so full that I lost only 2-3 hours of precious sleep time a day. And I told him that if I still use that device, I won’t work and stop selling. Father stopped at first but continued to do Then I sold some, some not, so that my father wouldn’t do it because he felt pity for the people below. Little by little the money in the account runs out of the account.
then the rhythm of life Makes me meet with friends who haven’t seen each other for a long time but have known each other since elementary school for more than half of their lives because they have to comfort a friend who has a broken heart. During that time, I was with these 2 friends and my younger sister, but I often stayed with my friends like destiny. A friend of mine who I’ve known for a long time has been treating me very well as a child and has never been this good to me. and then on his birthday He invited me to go, but it was very late. I just came back from a project and I was tired. But suddenly I went And then it’s just me and these 2 friends as usual on my childhood friend’s birthday. Then suddenly I said When a friend or acquaintance dies I don’t want to go to the funeral. because I don’t want to see the sad atmosphere of the people around me it makes me tarnished because my life is already bad then we meet again But I have a project, but I don’t know when the group will be called. And then 9 days after my birthday, a few minutes later, it’s 10 days from when I met my birthday. I lost that “friend” forever. Another friend of mine called me. But as fate played a joke, I came back sick with pox on my buttocks, I couldn’t sit and just lie down. until I didn’t see it at the last minute. When my friend died, I sat sad without feeling pain (but came out after waking up full of blood), and in the morning he took me back to my hometown to be buried. i want to go so much But as if God remembers my words, it made me sick. I hadn’t seen my friend’s face before he was buried.
3. Behavior change
Shortly after my friend’s death, he announced the lockdown.
I can do anything lately, as long as I can sleep or think. I use both kratom leaf juice and medicine to sleep and not think. At first there was no problem. But when the lockdown, people have no place to operate. The construction contractor took the job to do in his own residence that I was downstairs in his room. They both knocked with a hammer. grinder Scraping and filing various things and hammering nails until I can’t sleep. until I started having a headache But it hurts on one side like something is running from the neck up to the head and the head is throbbing. When I can’t sleep, I sit alone. Look out the window to see flashback images of the days of running around with friends who died seeing old spaces. So I tried to keep the lights off. Staying in the room so I can’t see anything because I don’t want to see the pictures that make me sad. But the knocking sound did not stop even at night until I heard a ringing in my ears. Even if he stopped knocking, I could hear it. Then I started to hear next door talking, not normal conversation, but the sound of the husband beating his wife. I hear these two voices every day, I can hear the coughing sound from above. At first I thought that I was deaf. Until I had to stand in front of his room and still hear, but the sound is clearer than what I hear below. The knocks and the beatings, even when I stopped using them, could be heard until I carried the knife to chase and kick his door like a madman for the only need of silence. When there were noises in the house, I tried to find them and stop them. I was annoyed even by the sound of spitting smoke, or the sound of eating, or even when I opened my mouth and made a beeping sound. I’ll try to run away alone to put my father to sleep and then go back to sleep. Until I bought the old room back because I couldn’t stand it anymore. Before leaving, I went to inform Niti. until I realized that the knocker was the son of a grocery store I always bought. At first I thought he had a good relationship with him, even forgetting to sign. Ordered snacks that I wanted to eat but didn’t have in Seven. I support each other But in the end, he just did business with me. In addition, the law that has been informed is known, so nothing has changed. When he came to the room that had been lost I heard the sound of the air conditioner and had a headache. Heard the opposite building playing the game even though the building is very far apart, but still know that he is playing rov, the character who plays Yorn. From the unheard of voices that I’ve lived in for 20 years, I can even hear people whispering in the elevator stairs if I open the door (the room is the second last far from the lift). I hate meeting people because those voices make me. My head hurts and I don’t want to talk to anyone I’ve never met before. Even masturbating sometimes takes 2-4 hours. and falls when wiping or just scratching the head Where should I go to see a doctor? I just want my head not to throb. with less hearing Lately, I don’t feel stressed, but I want to stop the noise around me because it irritates me. Until one time he almost punched his father. Please advise me I feel it’s not me at all.